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Imprisoned Inside

I just don't know anymore, with this feeling I am having. It feels like I am dying inside out. The sheer thought would've been deadly if I don't stand with what reason I have left.

When I made a decision back then, I made a prison for myself. A prison running in the jail of mind. Then, another decision turn the prison into a painful living. With my decision one by one setting stage, it slowly starts to become my downfall.

Hope is slowly fading away. Fear is taking the place. My body is shattering, my will is breaking, and everything I do, slowly leads to destruction of oneself.

But if there's one thing I want to revert, I will start by reverting mistakes when I was at senior high, several sets of mistakes to fix out, but I can't. In the end, I'm stuck, in a prison I made for myself.

Slowly, I will fall apart...
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