Daffa Abiyyu Blog

 Deep down, I still pray this won't be true to what the title holds. I pray it just be another step in life, though at this time of writing, I don't think I want to take another step and call it quits. Let's be real though, my choice didn't matter on this. Unless I do it my way, others will force it the high way as always. Idiocy is where I would put myself. Three times in a row is ridiculously stupid, and they are different decision, yet it has been very stupidly consistent. I suppose when I pour a decision with my heart in, my parents would call it "a bad decision" and forces me out of it, literally. Definitely all the goldenbird theme I feel of myself put with an emphasis, oh sorry, a bronzebird colored golden with oily colorings that the feather cannot remove those glittering gold that hurt my eyes. So many unfinished tasks, so many unanswered challenges, so long this roadless life. I used to think I can pursue my dream truly, but in the end, I was a cowar...

It's a waste of time. It just makes everything difficult. If my choice never matter, why bother asking my choice? Should've just forsaken all the feelings. Less hurt, less struggle, just sheer loneliness. Should've just focus to the top, alone. If all my choices doesn't truly matter, my deepest heart is not asked of, then just dictate. No need to sing a fantasy of me having a choice when there's no intent of letting me with whom I choose. 3 betrayals, 3 major events. Life is a funny thing. Normally, the saying goes if I had a nickel for every choice I made being overruled, the answer shouldn't exceed 2 nickels. Yet, I have 3 nickels. My education, my work, my love. In the end, why bother saying what I want if it must fit your perfect frame? Just dictate me as you wish, without all the faux, without any pretense of loving me. It's pointless....  Can I just die? Kalau kamu merasa tulisan ini menarik, menginspirasi, atau bermanfaat, kamu bisa dukung aku di Kary...

Years ago, I seek it. Dulu, aku berjuang untuk bisa melewati batas teman, trying to be someone that you consider as dearest. Yes, that's back then. As I said, had it been years ago, I would have straight out say YES out of sheer dumbness, or tenacity, or both. Tabun. I used to be full of desire to get you to acknowledge me, then. Sungguh lucu sekali, I would circumvent and try to just get any chance to meet with you. Aku menginginkan lebih, dulu. But no, it has always been someone else. Someone else get to be your priority, your attention. Berharap lebih adalah kesalahanku, dan aku selalu menganggapnya demikian. Why chase over the skies you cannot reach? I almost burned the entire bridge, truly. Only one more step and I know the entire relationship will turn into nothing more than smoldering ashes in the seas of lost time. You know, had you not talk to me within the short time of me settling my almost 9-years long illusion, perhaps the bridge had been burned completely, as I had wi...

 Saya menyesal tidak mempelajari ilmu kala ilmu itu aktif dibagikan. Setelah bertahun-tahun kemudian, saya menyadari ilmu itu diperlukan, dan sekarang saya kelimpungan mencari ilmu itu karena mereka yang membagikan ilmu telah pergi, dan yang masih memilikinya enggan atau tidak memiliki waktu untuk membagikannya. - Daffa

"Children are natural learners. It's a real achievement to put that particular ability out, or to stifle it. Curiosity is the engine of achievement." - Sir Ken Robinson "Tidak ada pencari ilmu yang tidak merasakan sakit. Bagi mereka, lebih baik itu daripada pahitnya kebodohan."

 "Mungkin, dikalangan Studi klasik Sastra Indonesia tentang kajian sastra abad-21, bakal dikenal dengan zaman kegelapan sastra. Ketika sastra tulis dikapitalisasi besar-besaran, dan mengesampingkan makna kontekstual tulisan itu sendiri dalam lingkup budaya dan sosial masyarakat pada masa itu. Ragam sosial masyarakat di era abad-21 bisa terbiaskan karena maraknya tulisan-tulisan jenis ini. Hingga melahirkan stigma bahwa generasi yang hidup pada masa itu telah kehilangan rasa hidupnya." -Alif Prasetyo

Make sure to follow this with perfect order: 1. conda create -n tf_gpu tensorflow-gpu 2. conda activate tf_gpu 3. pip install numpy==1.23.4 [EXECUTE GPU TEST CODE] ==> CODE MUST RETURN GPU NUMBER > 0 [#CONFIRMED] 4. pip install tensorflow-gpu==2.10 [EXECUTE GPU TEST CODE] ==> CODE MUST RETURN GPU NUMBER > 0 [#CONFIRMED] 5. pip install tensorflow==2.10 [EXECUTE GPU TEST CODE] ==> CODE MUST RETURN GPU NUMBER > 0 [#CONFIRMED] (You may skip the first two test, but it helps ensure your environment is set up right)   TRIVIA: - There's no 2.11 version of Tensorflow GPU on pip as shown below: ERROR: Could not find a version that satisfies the requirement tensorflow-gpu==2.11 (from versions: 2.5.0, 2.5.1, 2.5.2, 2.5.3, 2.6.0, 2.6.1, 2.6.2, 2.6.3, 2.6.4, 2.6.5, 2.7.0rc0, 2.7.0rc1, 2.7.0, 2.7.1, 2.7.2, 2.7.3, 2.7.4, 2.8.0rc0, 2.8.0rc1, 2.8.0, 2.8.1, 2.8.2, 2.8.3, 2.8.4, 2.9.0rc0, 2.9.0rc1, 2.9.0rc2, 2.9.0, 2.9.1, 2.9.2, 2.9.3, 2.10.0rc0, 2.10.0rc1, 2.10.0rc2, 2.10.0rc3, 2.1...